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cash.
clothes.
new handphone.
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Wednesday, December 31, 2003

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you are a..."head over heels" lover.


What Kind Of Lover Are You?
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Tuesday, December 30, 2003

woke up at 11am.
didn't had enough sleep. damn tired. -yawn-

was out with my dad for the whole day.
went to shop around at town and bugis.
and finally I have exchanged my spoilt modem to a new one after for like don't know how many years?! haha.
had lunch at delifrance.
bought 2 t-shirts and a pair of pants at levi's shop!!

haha. quite happy lah.

dad thought of buying a pair of speakers.
so we headed down to the adelphi.
went in to his friend's shop.
and guess what? his friend thought that I'm his SON?!? lol.
cos my dad was like testing the speakers. but not sure which one is better.
so he asked for my opinion. then his friend was like saying to him "wah, ask for HIS(me) opinion, bet HE(me) knows more than you do." hahaa.

told my dad I still prefer the one we saw at selegie road.
haha. he agreed with me too!

so finally, we went back there and get it.
bet he's happy with his new speakers. hee.
was quite a tiring day. but worth it lah cos hardly spend time with my dad.

love him so much. =)

you

I miss you girl.
was damn happy to see you yesterday.
only you can brighten up my day.
can't wait to meet up with you again.
sigh.

Maybe the reason why I haven't found who I've been searching for is because I know that I've already found her. It's just up to her to say whether I am who she has been waiting for..

//Elvis Presley - cant help falling in love

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Thursday, December 25, 2003

Merry Christmas To All My Friends!

am sad. am still lost and confused. my problem can never be solve. sigh. erm. was out with my friends yesterday. didn't really enjoy myself. as usual. went to catch a midnight show (scary movie 3). it was quite nice. my friends were all laughing away thru out the show but I don't even have the mood to laugh? sigh. don't have the mood for anything. went to my friend's house after that. had mahjong sessions while I'm staring into space. not sure of what to do. jen came to console me but it didn't really helps. she felt sad for me. sigh. can't sleep for the whole night. got home this afternoon. am physically, mentally and emotionally tired. sigh. =(

you

Every moment without you, is a moment of time lost.

My love for you is like time, if you give it just one moment, it will last forever.

If, out of time, I could pick one moment and keep it shining, always new, of all the days that I have lived, I'd pick the moment I met you.

You are worth every breathing moment of every day, of each week, of all 12 months, of each year to come. You are worth my life.

When I am with you, I wish I could stop time so I could spend forever with you and never have to leave your company.

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Sunday, December 21, 2003

Brief summary of your name: Gwen

Your first name of Gwen has created contrasting qualities in your nature. You desire change and varied experiences and you are capable in many areas, but you do not excel because of your scattering, impulsive desires. With supportive influence from other names you may use, you could be creative or artistic in a practical way, but basically this name is a plodding influence, though you have a desire for greater expression. Although you desire to avoid monotony, you seem to be attuned to system, order, and attention to detail. You can be very analytical, exacting, and patient as long as there is a challenge holding your interest, such as in the field of computers with its technical challenge..etc.

you

I miss you girl.. hope you will get well soon. drink lots of water and have enough sleep/rest alright? as I say.. please take good care of yourself, cos I really care. hugz!

//Joe - I Wanna Know

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Saturday, December 20, 2003

haiz. am sinking into depression. past few days and even right now, my mood is still very unstable. sigh. I just don't know WHY! arghhh. really hate this kind of feeling. though I don't have the mood to think/do anything else, I still miss/think of you alot. my feelings for you won't change but will increase. trust me!! sigh.

you

Time has passed, the season has changed, but the words that I said, will still remain the same.

If I am there to see the world end, I will stand firm if your hand is in mine.

Time may change my life but my heart remains the same to you. Time may change your heart, but my love for you never changes.

Time could never dim my love for you, because with every beat of my heart, I only want you more.

//Kenny G - The Moment

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Thursday, December 18, 2003

you

In time all things wil grow old n weak, but my love for u wil only grows strong n better with every second of every day.

Time wil prove my love to u n cement my place in ur heart always. Someday u'll know, tat I was the one for u.

Time is only a four-letter word. Although we're not together, time can't take u fr my heart. I'll sit n wait until u are mine, n make 'our time' with a fresh new start!

In my heart there wil always be a place for u..it wil nv change. I'll keep u with me always. Wherever I am.. there u are.

I can't show u I love u..but time wil tell u I love u.

//am serious with what i say.

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Tuesday, December 16, 2003

you

If love is not worth waiting for, it's not worth having.

I once had dream that you were here with me standing by my side saying those words that meant everything to me. I know that dream will come true, and until that day I am waiting here for you.

If love hurts, why do people take the risk? If love kills, why risk losing your life? If love is all that waiting... then why insist on saying, 'It's never too late?

The space between what's wrong and right is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you. And the most unfair thing is to see me here still waiting, patiently, in love with you..

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//Brandy - have you ever

[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them her understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them her feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their her heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just anything to look into their her eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their her heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they she were was there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they she will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

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Sunday, December 14, 2003

feeling down and weak. am lost and confused.
oh God, please help me!

you

It's hard to say no when I really mean yes. It's
hard to close my eyes when I really want to
see.

It's hard to forget when I really can't, but the
hardest is to leave when I really want to stay.

I love you but I can't express it out because
I know deep down in my heart that you could
never be mine. I tried to love you from afar,
but I realized that it's useless, that's why
I have to say I love you...Goodbye.

Don't be surprised if one day I'll avoid you and
be gone, it's not because you've done something
wrong and I hate you but because I'm afraid to
love and be hurt by somebody who can't love
me back.

sigh.

//Christina Aguilera - A Voice Within

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Sunday, December 07, 2003

christmas is around the corner... can't wait man! put up my christmas tree and those decorations. look damn nice!! lol. erm... working as a telemarketer is really damn suck!! newae gonna change a new job, with a better pay.. haiz... for the past few weeks, my mood was like up and down. one day can be very happy and the other day was like living in hell.. was so damn confused with the things i am doing or thinking. have been asking myself 'am i doing the right things?' , 'am i going the right way?' negative tots keep flowing into my mind.. what has happen to me? why is it that the things i don't wish to, happen to me? why? what have i done? -wondering- haiz.. the only thing i can do right now is to WAIT and be PATIENCE! never GIVE UP! hmmm.. can i do it? will i wait in vain? what if the answer is negative? what if this, what if that? argGhHh... full of why, what if...etc. keep telling myself, 'i must have FAITH with the things i am doing! be FIRM!' but faith is fading in me.. what should i do? tell me! how? sob.. really hope that things will turn out better as the day goes by.. am waiting for the miracle to come.. will it happen? what if don't happen? sigh.. -pray real hard- but no matter what i will WAIT!...


+ When I love someone, I'll do anything for that love to last forever, when I love someone, I sacrifice, I give everything she wish for, even if she wishes for freedom, it hurts so much but that's love. +

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